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Look, we’ve had some good times. I really enjoy your company and the conversations we had. You have a great sense of humor and I’ll look back on our time together fondly. But, this just isn’t working for me and I think it’s best if we part ways.

It’s not like running with you has been all bad, Group, but we just want different things. You want to start long runs near 7:00AM. I want to be out the door by 6:00AM before things start to really heat up. I want to change up my route if I feel like it instead of the same old out and back. I want to listen to music every now and then. I want to train at a 10:15-10:20 pace, which is outside your designated :30 interval pace groups. I want to fart with abandon instead of trying to slowly sneak one out.

We’ll still see each other on weekdays, I just cant commit to going the long distance with you anymore. I think this is best for both of us. I’ll be able to step out my door and get started as opposed to driving and parking , waiting for the morning chat to end and then waiting some more for the wave start of each pace group, and hoping we get back before the parking validation grace period runs out. You’ll be able to run without worrying about me lagging behind and turning for home when it hits 80 degrees by 7:30AM. I’m sorry that it happened again, but tapping out the second weekend in a row makes me think this is for the best.

I’m not happy about it, but I don’t want to chance that I’ll try to start fresh only to leave you again next week. We’re already too far into training to throw more doubts about my abilities into the mix too. A few of the coaches asked if this was my first marathon, which is fair. I don’t look like much of a runner anymore. I reply that it’s my first in 5 years, and I’m treating this like a first.

“You’ll be able to tap into those memory miles.”

I’d never heard of that before. Memory miles seems like a good thing to have. Thanks for that. I hope they show up soon. If memory serves, I’m not running enough miles. It may be a mistake, but this weekend calls for a 9 mile long run and tomorrow (early!) morning, I’m going to aim for 10. Next weekend, 12, then I’ll cut back to where I’m supposed to be in your program.

I feel like if I can do 10 then 12 these next two weeks on my time my way, I’ll be ok. It seems silly and I can’t really explain it in terms of training benefit other than I mentally need this. I’ve felt like an imposter. I’m not going to think about what will happen if I bonk during this plan just yet.

Maybe you think me crazy. Trust the process, stick to the plan, right? Well, I do trust the process to an extent. I also have years of experience and know when to push and when to back off. Today I knew I had to back off and I can prepare to push tomorrow. I hope I have good news to share!